Oh,O lvls are approaching, It's only slightly more than a year.


I am so away from the reality, always thought there is still a long way to go.
But after what mr lee have said, i realised time is so not enough for us.
Time flies past so fast.


It just feels like yesterday i just entered deyi. Without I, myself noticing time has already gone by me. Why time has to always have to be so fast. I remembered i was only such a little kid when i just entered deyi, and only a year with ms chua, and a year with mdm tan,
we have already in upper sec,taking o lvl next year.


I have to wake up, stop man. Jasmine, you really have to buck up. It's so competitive and i am still bumping around. I really need to work hard. But how? It's been a question.


My maths? I know i have not done well in both test. I flunked both.
I know im not familiarise with with the both chapters im going now.. I swear the both tests i did,I could really do well. I just could not manage my time properly, focusing too much on questions which supposed to be solved in a short time,wasting a
lot of time. It was so unneccessary, so unneccessary.



I really regreted.
I really do.
But what should i really do to see improvements?



Listen to this! It's really nice! Current FAVOURITE SONG (: I Surrender by Celion Dion and Kelly Clarkson.

Oh. E learning sucked.

In fact, i haven even started on it. Decided to do it tmr with minji. Ah! Trigo! Dont even get any thing into my brain. Obtuse angles -.- Forget it then.

I realised i have not eating my meals regularly. For recess, lunch and dinner. I think i better to have a time table for myself.. If not i think all my meal times would be totally screwed.

Who can help me in e learning? Why cant just all e learning disappear and vanish into thin air.

Oh, i just realised i am so into photos of myself. Just love the camera. Always craving for one more shot.

I read this story online (and the author is also someone i am REALLY close with,close to a point where.. :D) and it's soo touching. I really recommend you all to read this and i believe you all will agree what i've said. It's really great.


You just have to read.
But before that, i have to warn you that it's freaking long. But really trust me, read it.
HERE WE GO.




"Sasuke, be my boyfriend. "

"What..? "

"Just for, 100 days. "

"Are you out of your mind? "

"Please, Sasuke. Can you? "

".. Just hundred. "

"It's a deal, kay? "

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It had been two weeks since Sasuke is my boyfriend, I'm really contented that he agreed to me, but at the same time, I'm pretty surprised too.

"Sasuke, during the 100th day, we shall watch the sunset, together, alright? "

"Sure. "

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I really want to enjoy and treasure each day till the hundredth day.

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"Sasuke! Tada! I've made bento for you! Sushi this time! I've woke up early in the morning to make this, so you better appreciate it! "

Sasuke smiled, "Thanks. I will. " and he opened the cover of the bento.

"Is it nice? " I gave a reproachful look. Deep in my heart, I'm sure he will think it's nice.

"Mn. " Sasuke agreed.

See?

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It's Valentine's Day tomorrow. I want to bake chocolate cookies for my lover. :D But, I wonder if it will turn out nice. Ok, I got to grab all the ingredients, rush home and try out the recipe.

"Sasuke, I can't accompany you after school, I have stuffs to do. You go home first, kay? "

"Sure, bye then. " Sasuke smiled and turned back.

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His smile,

I want to see it, everyday.

Till the hundredth day.

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"Flour, baking powder, cocoa powder, chocolate chips, pinch of salt.. " Ok, this time, I got to succeed.

This is my fourth attempt of baking my Valentines cookies for my beloved Sasuke.

First attempt, I got distracted by a commercial from the television and the cookies on burnt. -.-

Second attempt, cookies turned out very salty.

Third attempt, cookies turned out very bland.

This time, I got to succeed.

I want to show the best Valentines cookies to Sasuke-kun.

And the.. oh well, let's don't think about it. I want to make this Valentine's Day the SWEETEST AND BEST of my life.

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I gave it my all, the fourth attempt, that it.

The cookies turned out in a pretty dark shade brown in colour. I took one of it, hoping real hard that it will be nice. I sank my teeth in the cookies.

Oh yes baby, it's was delicious.

Good to go.

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I'm trying so hard, to create the best and beautiful memories for these hundred days.

I'm so selfish. I'm fucking selfish.

I'm sorry, Sasuke.

I'm really sorry.

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The next day.

I stepped into the classroom. The classroom was empty.

I was early. Two hour early, I'm felt so... What is the word to describe me now? Sore-loser or something?

With a box wrapped with a wrapper of pink hearts on it. Haha! I felt kinda nervous too. 'Cause Sasuke's gonna taste MINE chocolates first before any other girls. Hmph!

Fighting oh!

This is war.

I sat on my seat.

I waited, and waited. For my boyfriend of course.

How little did I realised that I started to lay my head on my table, and my eyelids began to get heavier... and I drifted into that lalaland of mine..

-

I'm such a idiot.

I'm so stupid.

How could I fall asleep?!

Damn it.

-

More and more students entered the classroom.

And the classroom get noisier.

And the noise of girls squealings filled the room.

I was awake of it.

Shit.

I fell asleep.

I just realised it.

I quickly scanned across the classroom, finding Sasuke.

There's a bunch of girls crowding around Sasuke's seat.

No doubt, there he is.

And shit.

I'm late.

-

I grabbed my Valentines cookies and quickly stormed towards there.

He have to eat mine chocolate cookies first.

This is war, i repeat.

-

I squeezed through the crowd of annoying girls. Sasuke's standing infront of me.

"Sasuke-kun.. This is the Valentine's cookies I made for you. Happy Valentine's Day! " I held the box of Valentines cookies with both hands with my head facing down.

Why am I blushing?

Because I love him.

Sasuke paused for a moment. He accepted my Valentine gift with both hands, "Thanks, Sakura. "

He smiled.

That smile which is filled with appreciation.

And love.

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That smile,

I want to see it, everyday.

Till the hundredth day.

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I smiled too, widely.

"Can't you eat it first? "

Many gasps were heard around the classroom.

"What?! Sasuke should eat mine first! "

"No! Mine! "

"No mine! "

See? This is war.

-

I let out a frown. Damn it.

Girls were banging each other and-

"Sorry girls, I will only eat my girlfriend's Valentine's cookies, which was made with love. "

Oh god.

This is so fucking sweet.

-

Oh yea, I'm Uchiha Sasuke's girlfriend.

I grinned. And smiled sweetly to Sasuke.

And within seconds, my hands were pulled and I was dragged out of the classroom.

Such huge hands.

Such warmness.

I wish I could hold this particular hands forever.

-

Run.

And run.

And run.

Not alone.

-

We stopped. I panted and panted.

We're at the rooftop.

"Sasuke, wha- "

"The atmosphere there isn't suitable for us, isn't it. "

I don't know how to answer him.

Blood ran up to my face. I'm blushing real hard. I pinched myself, is this a dream? If it is, I don't wish it to end.

"T-try the cookies! " I finally broke the silence.

"Ok. " Sasuke removed the wrapper and ate a piece of cookie.

I sat and gazed at him real hard, watching him quietly munching the cookie like a little kiddo.

So cute.

Such magnificent sight.

Data and image saved in my brain.

He finished the last cookie, leaving some crumbs on the corner of his lips. He used his thumb and wiped the crumbs away and licked it.

Awww. I want to hug him real hard! _

"It's good. " He finally spoke.

I smiled. That's all I could react. I wasn't really expecting much though.

"When did you learn to bake cookies? "

"Since yesterday..? "

"You mean, you started learn to bake yesterday? "

"Yea.. Although I failed the first few attempts though.. " I claimed, embarrassingly. Although I know the last sentence was kinda unnecessary.

"So that was the 'stuffs' you have to do yesterday, huh? " Sasuke leaned closer to me and raised an eyebrow. He's so close. His handsome face was so near mine.

I moved backward, blinked. I looked down and nodded.

"Idiot. " Sasuke smiled and ruffled my hair.

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That smile,

I want to see it, everyday.

Till the hundredth day.

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In the midst of this limited time,

I strongly carved the emotions into my heart,

The sun will rise again.

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Today was the 50th day.

Today is the day that I looked forward the most.

The White Day(The day where the guys give girls gifts to express their love in Japan).

I walked into the classroom,

sat on my seat.

Waiting, patiently.

For who?

Sasuke, of course.

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The White Day is today.

What will he give me?

Am I pulling my hopes too high?

Sasuke walked into the classroom.

Target locked.

-

There he is!

Is he walking towards to me?

Is he?

No.

He's sitting on his seat. Folding his arms, and closed his eyes as usual.

...

What?

-

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The lessons started,

teabreak, lunchbreak was over.

He didn't give me anything.

Nothing.

-

I was.. disappointed. I couldn't deny that.

I'm his girlfriend for god sake! (inner me)

School's finally over.

Me and Sasuke walked home together.

Such awkward silence. Normally, I would be the one talking away. But I didn't.

Sasuke's paced stopped. Noticed, I stopped too.

Sasuke's hand was placed with a petite baby pink box, it caught my eyes instantly.. It's pretty.

I blinked, wait.. It is.. right?

"Here. " Sasuke looked away, blushing a little.

I slowly reached out my hands, and took the baby pink box.

"T-thanks.. "

".... "

"Why now? "

"Now..? " Sasuke questioned.

"Why didn't you gave me earlier, like, in school?

"It's embarrassing. " Sasuke replied, feeling a little shy too.

"Idiot. " I smiled.

And he smiled too.

Suddenly, he grabbed my wrists, pulled towards him, and kissed me.

On the lips.

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I was taken aback. And closed my eyes.

Sasuke slowly break the kiss,

"I love you, Haruno Sakura. " Sasuke gazed me with his deep-set dark eyes, it's mesmerizing.

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"I love you too, Uchiha Sasuke. "

A passionate kiss followed.

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Such fantastical feeling.

Moistening my heart.

I will definitely not forget this,

I will treasure this.

I'm sorry, Sasuke.

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Each day passed by, peacefully.

I treasured every day with Sasuke.

My heart too,

Wrench as each day passed by.

-

Why don't this last forever?

Why?

I'm so fucking selfish.

Just slap me.

-

Today, is the 90th day.

After ten days, me and Sasuke.. won't be together anymore.

Or perhaps..

Less than that.

-

Today is weekend. Urgh, I hate it.

I want to see Sasuke.

I want school.

It is currently raining now, I like the breeze.

The evening sunflowers that I can see from the window after the rain, calms me down.

I miss Sasuke. All the sudden.

I want him to appear in front of me. I miss him.

I felt tired..

Sasuke..

-

Today is the 95th day.

I didn't went to school, for 2 days.

I felt, weak and tired.

God, please let me,

just 5 more days.

Please.

Please.

Sasuke...

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Today is the third day that I didn't went to school.

I coughed non-stop.

I fucking miss Sasuke.

I want to see him.

Sasuke.. Sasuke..!!

Doorbell was heard. The door creaked open, who is it?

A person entered my room.

Oh, it's him.

"Sasuke.. " I called out, weakly.

"Are you fine? Heard that you had a bad cold. "

"Yea.. Sasuke.. "

"Yes? Do you need anything. "

"No.. You being here is enough. I miss you so much.. I really do.. " I replied, tears welled up in my eyes. Stop, tears, please don't flow. Please.

Not in front of Sasuke. Please.

-

Sasuke hugged me, tightly. I felt his warm. I'm felt so blissful, jubilant. I want to hug him forever.

-

I can't.

I can't be selfish.

Time's going to be up.

I've got to learn. To let go.

I'm sorry, Sasuke..

Sorry for being so selfish.

I'm so...

Sorry.

-

Sasuke took care of me for the day.

I'm grateful.

For everything he had done,

Every moment, every second.

He cooked porridge for me,

I didn't realised he could actually cooked.

So sweet.

... Bittersweet.

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"Eat it slowly, becareful, it's hot. " Sasuke placed the bowl of porridge on a tray.

"Thanks alot. Sorry for troubling you, Sasuke. "

"Idiot. You're not troubling me. I'm volunteering, kay? " Sasuke smiled.

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That smile, again.

I want to see it, everyday.

Till the hundredth day.

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Today, is the 99th day.

Two more hours till our deal ends.

Do Sasuke realised that?

I didn't went to school today. But I did went to school, yesterday. I was struggling real hard yesterday.

I'm terribly tired, and weak.

Sometimes, I felt it hard to breathe.

I..

Don't wish to see Sasuke now.

I have to learn,

to leave.

But..

I really miss him now.

I want to see him.

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I coughed, thick blood was seen on my bedsheet.

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"Sasuke, during the 100th day, we shall watch the sunset, together, alright? "

"Sure. "

-

Please god, after this.

Doorbells was heard, I was shocked.

The door was open,

footstep sounds were getting louder,

as the sound was in front of my bedroom's door.

-

-

"Sasuke, stop there. "

The person didn't enter the room.

I knew it was him.

I have to tell him.

-

I held back my tears, trying my very best to control my voice. Hoping it doesn't sound shaky.

"Sasuke, "

"I'm sure you still remember the 100 day deal, right? "

"... "

Yes, he remember.

"One more hour, and our deal is over. And we're not lovers anymore. "

"You still going on that damn deal? " Sasuke asked, his voice filled with.. different mixed feelings, anger, disappointment and fear. I can feel it.

"Yes. " I replied, icily.

"Let's ignore that deal, kay, Sakura? "

"NO. ..! " I was close to screaming, and I start coughing.

"Why! "

"Sasuke, when I made that 100 day deal with you... I had a reason with it.. " My voice starting to crack. Please, don't cry. Please. Haruno Sakura, control your damn tears!

"A week before I requested that deal, I was feeling unwell, I had some difficulties in breathing and I went to see a doctor.. "

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"Doctor, nowadays I felt unwell, and I felt.. Breathing alone is a chore. What is happening to me? Is it because of the bad weather? "

"Haruno Sakura, before you hear the truth, you must have a self mental prepare for it. "

"... What..? Just tell me, sensei. "

"You contacted a lung cancer. "

"What...?! Can you cure it. "

"The cancer cells has already start spreading. There's no way to cure it now. All you left was time. "

"How long do I left. "

"Three to four months. "

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"When I heard the doctor said that I was diagnosed with lung cancer, and only left three to four months. I was crestfallen and grief-stricken. But that's when I've started to promise myself to treasure and make the most beautiful moments of my life. And at that point, I trully love you. I decided and vow to myself to create the best memories and moments with you. And I made that deal... with you... " My tears dripped non-stop, splattered violently on my shivering hands.

A death silence was on the other side of the door.

"I'm so sorry, Sasuke. I know I'm very selfish. I know I- " I stopped and coughed again. More thick blood was found on my bedsheet. That's when I heard the door slammed open and Sasuke ran towards me and hugged me.

-

"Are you alright?! "

"You.." I was too weak to reply anything much too.

"You this idiot. One big muthafucking idiot. Why did you do this to me.. Why..!! " Sasuke's voice was shaky too. My back felt wet, he was crying.

For my sake.

I starting crying too. Tears just kept on flowing non-stop. And I keep on saying on two words : "Sorry, Sasuke....."

-

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Such unforgivable actions.

Because of my selfishness,

Causing my lover such grieve.

I'm sorry, Sasuke.

-

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"Sun is setting.. Half an hour more.. " I said, hoarsely.

Sasuke suddenly carried me, and ran out of the house.

And soon, we arrived on top of the hill.

The scenery was awesome, it was the most beautiful sight I've ever seen.

The sky was painted in orange and red.

Sun's setting soon.

And,

-

It's getting harder to breath.

Just, a little more.

God, please.

-

"I think, I'm at my limits. Sasuke-kun, in these days with you. I felt it was the best moments of my life. Really. "

"Hush, don't say a single word. " Sasuke placed his index finger on my lips.

The sun setting slowly, as the seconds gone by..

"I love you, Sasuke. "

As the last rays of the sun disappeared,

I saw something. Tears started flowing again.

-

Sasuke's smile.

He's facing me.

with that smile.

I've no regrets.

After seeing that angelic smile.

-

Sasuke's isn't crying.

I'm happy to see that. Really.

-

-

Everything's getting darker now,

darker and darker.

I'm getting tired and tired.

And before I fell into the deepest sleep of my dream,

-

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I heard the most angelic voice,

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"I love you too, Mrs Uchiha. "

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Picture of the day!

Whats the problem with you?!


NahNah im just kidding...


Today was such a great day! Went to the cathay watch HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF
BLOOD PRINCE.
It nice okay! Although people say it's like, not as good compared to the others.. but somehow it made me feel this was one of the best. It made me anticipate for the next movie to continue the story.



Professor Snape killed the Professor D something(?.. the principal of harry's school) call it Professor D. (: HOW CAN A TEACHER OF THE SCHOOL KILL ITS PRINCIPAL?! So when you watch it, from everybody's perspective, Snape is bad guy.
But for the next movie, we would find out Snape is a good guy. Somehow there's a reason for killing, according to JL. Hahahahaha. Isit true? JUNLING uh JUNLING! You made me so curious for the next movie..


Watch trailer for The Final Destination 4. WOW FANTASTIC!
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE IT LIKE SHIT! Im sooooooo gonna watch it. But the rest of feminines were like.. too afraid. and it's 3D! But seriously, without the 3D isalready able to make you pee in your pants dont even think about the 3D. IT's gonna make you bonkers!


The other is 2012. it's about the end of the world. All of the building collapse, and everything. WOW. shall show you the trailer and you would know what i mean.
ENJOY (:

Back to minji house again.. Pictures paint thousand words..

When did this get taken? ahhahah must be corin..

Corin that hot babe(:

Look at us! Hahahhahaha was playing with camera (:

Photographed by:corin.

SHall upload others on next post.. lazy man! TMR!

EXCITED FOR TMR! hahahahahah our full clique outing (: HAHAHAHAHHA! night picnic! doesnt that cound great? We will be also enjoying at marina barrage at night. With wind.. and breathing in the fresh air. COOL!

Sorry bhareth i cannot go:( I really promised them already. And i miss you soooo much!! Enjoy yourself in Singapore and also stay happy! Peace(:

Im soooooooo SLEEPY!

Today's physics test was a disaster. Im think i m gonna fail.. Lost 3 marks on some stupid question and i believe i will lose somemore-.- Got myself a new long top with sam michelle and JL. Too bad i got the last one so michelle couldnt get that dress. :P

Oh getting a real headache now. Gotta rest. Tmr will be another bad day for me.

Today dance training is like soooo tiring man. Going back to the monstrous training. WHY CAN C.O.E LAUNCH JUST GET LOST! :( The training is like.. i would rather run 4.8 km. Im serious. Just gonna die anytime. Today is a very shot training and i've died. How about next time and other training? oh i give up. But afterall still okay luh, at least im doing something i like,dance (:

Second post for today (:

As what i've mentioned,Went studying with shiying. Shall skip what we have done.. lets skip to playground!

Knew quite a few little kids there. Can you believe it..

A Primary 2 kid scolding the word F**K?!

And others too. A young little girl, whom studies were great, and scolding the work F**K?! I dont really think in our generation we even know the word existed-.-.She didn understand what the word means though, buy just scolding the words to her so called "enemies" or when she's unhappy..

hahaha now i realised we are so innocent back in our days!

Back to minji's house...

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Was supposed to be a studying session, but ended up i took soooo much pictures that i neglected my work. Because it's minji's NEW CAMERA! It's good. Great camera.. But of course, i finished it in the end..

My hand! and minji also..

I just love MACRO!

Smile (:

Well Well Well, I am reallly starting to get worried for tomorrow. Anybody knows any ways to let me calm down? Alright.. Shall post more pics i guess. Goodnight and of course sleep tight!

OhOhOh..

I am getting late to meet shiying and others!But at least i must upload or i dont think i even have the time :( Took loads of pictures with minji's camera! Quite a lot but no time to upload! There used to be tons of homework during weekends, now suddenly, no homework. I somehow kind of feel weird like bumping around and nothing to do. lol! Alright gotta rush, might update more tonight (:


PS: Anybody know where to get good clothes and shoes? Email me @ jasgoh_31@hotmail.com or tag me(:

OMG LOOK AT THE PICTURES TAKEN WHEN THE FEMININES' OUTING.

AND GUESS WHAT?! I WASNT THERE! MISSED ALL THE WONDERFUL FOOD!

I see this pictures again at junling's blog. I m so gonna kill junling man. It just made me so envious of them! Ah! Im so gonna break sam's phone once again.

Was too lazy to do work today. Not planning to do so. JUst let my a math notebook and textbook to rot. Slept for the whole afternoon once i got home. Wow that's like the best thing ever done today (: Perhaps nowadays not enough sleep.. was like chatting about proms, and what we will do after O's and this year's hol with my few babes..

Im so gonna have a sleepover man! SO damn fun! A 3 day 2 night sleepover will be like.. shopping in the day, going to parks to cycle/rollerblade, then at night cook our dinner together, and at night share some tiny little secrets before we sleep and tickling each other at bed. Doesn't that sound wonderful? Bet the feminines would be like sooooooooo looking forward to it!

Girls are always talking about fashion. I DESPERATELY NEED..

Slippers, Heels, Shawl, top& bottom, camera.

Anybody know places where they really sell nice heels and clothes at a affordable price? ( and also all the mentioned above) Im really in need of all these. Please email me @ jasgoh_31@hotmail.com or either you can choose to tag me. Thanks!

AYG PICTURES!

Actually there are a lot more.. But i dont know at whose and which camera. I just keep taking photos whoever who call me. So ended up i cant get all the pictures. haha!

ENJOY!

I tried yo kill sabrina!

BUT..

she made me apologise to her instead :( BULLY!

MY LES! hahahah i was just kidding!

HWEESUAN!

US!

LingYing! You are not suppose to smile!!

HAHA!

Me and lingying!

Me and yuen yee!

ME AND FRIENDS.

Teachers!

WOOHOO!

SPIRIT OF EVOLUTION DANCERS!

The AYG ATHLETES!

MOMENTUM PURSUIT!

PICTURES..

The confetti seems nice eh?

Somehow seems like snow.. nice effect!

Me..

Us!

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The starting position.. IT's TIRING OKAY!

Holding in that position walking on spot for 4 EIGHTS! my legs are sore.

NICE ENDING!

Me and minling!

THE JUMPERS!

Starting positions..

THE FUN SCENES BEHIND!

YOU WILL NEVER IMAGINE THE FUN..

Comparing to be sexier! Who's sexier? hahah the answer better not be known(:

SO MUCH FUN!

Bleh!

Now you can imagine how much fun we had..

MONKEY FACE!

Pursuit-ers (:

COOKING AT JESSLYN'S HOUSE

The spagetti! without gravy..

DRINK..

HAHAHHAHA! WE !

Corin, minji and JASMINE (:

My school days !

A long time picture..

Wow It took me like ages to upload all these pics into blogger. Not very long time but you know sometimes too lazy. Finally finished my chinese composition today. Soooooo proud of myself! (because i normally would just leave it to rot) hahaha! Tomorrow is the new start of everything and i would start afresh and work hard! CHEERS FOR ME! well, good night!